I talked to allie today, and i guess they have to be out of the rental house they live in now, by sunday night at midnight... but they did find another rental house to move into. I will be at watch all this weekend- so i guess i wont have to help them move. HaHA!!!

Im going to be really sad that she will live 45 min away..in Oceanside. i guess i wont be able to just drop over there all the time anymore- i hope it doesnt turn into the same thing as I have with Rachael- i havent seen her in MONTHS.

I did get to talk to Rach last week on my birthday. We just sat there and cried and laughed on the phone..and laughed and cried- some more...I guess with Rob being sick - its really taken a hard toll on their relationship, because she has to do everything...and their sex life.. She was trying to explain to me that "sex isnt always the most important thing- but its been since like August" - and The she was like.. Oh your boyfriend is still gone huh? you know all about that stuff then ...

But she told me this funny story!...

We had a good laugh when she told me that Rob was trying to get her to "do him a favor" because he cant have any kind of sex- it hurts too bad,,,and how its not the most sexiest thing in the world - because he still has this Colostomy bag on... She said.." well he wants me to do him a favor right? and im trying to- but there's this gigantic bag full of shit right by your head Arian!

So i started laughing....hysterically

and she goes--" I know-- Arian..I know-! but wait-it gets worse... Its not a little tiny bag either--its a huge pastry bag and it makes this crinkling noise like a plastic trash bag and I cant get into it and concentrate on being sexy or doing a good job because theres this HUGE bag O' Shit by my head!"

I laughed so hard that i was crying... i couldnt stop either...

Poor Rach-

Poor me too,,while im thinking about it... im not getting anything either,, boo hoo. sometimes i really NEED some too. I wish i could just go to the store and pick up a can of sex- so the craving would go away. Im going to put it on my grocery list next time. blah.

I know Sam doesnt really want me as much as you used to anymore anyway. and its all my fault anyway. Nobody wants to be around a blah person like me, and relationships arent always as exciting as they were in the first months anyway. lustful feelings wear off after a while eventually.

Im supposed to meet up with my friend Steve from high school today- after he gets off of work,, were going to take our beasts to Chuckie Cheese. Our friendship sort of drifted apart when my Ex -Jared and i were dating because Jared is jealous of other guys..especially because he was so small- and Steve is really muscular hehe!

We met when we were in our senior year, and we were in a small class of 12 people,, peer listening- i was a high school PEER counselor...we were always meditating in our class, and Steve would always fall asleep. One time his mouth dropped open and i put a Dorito in there... hehe!

He had problems with his parents, when he left the navy- and got his girlfriend pregnant....and so my mom and dad let him move into our house... he was really close with my mom. Well im glad that i started talking to him again- he's really cool.. and he has a 9 year old named Christian now... so the beasties are the same age....

He lives out by Viejas casino- and he is a nutritional specialist for the athletes there, he works at the Olympic training center... and i havent seen him in like 3 years.

I was telling Angel that i was going to go meet up with him,after work and angel is like" your going to go cheat on your boyfriend?" I said NO Stupid! soo funny. Steve has a girl he's sort of seeing now anyway. He's not a pimp or a cheater now at this point in his life. (he was back in high school)

It will be nice to get out of the house today anyway.... and it will be good to see him and christian again.

oh i guess my birthday package is here now,, i am going to try to leave work now and pick it up before the Post Office closes...

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