well i got off work super early yesterday, and decided that it would be the best time to go and try on dresses for my high school reunion which is next saturday.

i wanted to wear a short skirt, because the best thing i have going for me is my legs, and my face ... or if i couldnt find something perfect i was going to go for a nice top with some black dress slacks. so im trying stuff on, and getting discouraged because the stuff i found was really not the look i wanted to go for..

i kept finding these beautiful kimono tops,that were see thru. so obviously i was going to have to wear something under it,, and whats the point of that..!?!who wears this shit? sluts i guess!

i found 2 dresses at 1 store and they are both halters. 1 is plain black with some gathered fabric on the sides and it has a assymettrical hemline. the other is black with some random pattern of long white lines back and forth on it, and right at the neck there is a silver ring and the neck ties come off of that. i happened to also find a pair of black slacks that were perfect for about 5 other shirts i have, so i have another outfit to wear for the ice breaker on friday night which is at a bar/resturaunt.

i was glad i found something because the heat was making me feel like i was going to have a panic attack. whenever i have a real panic attack i always get very hot first. so if the weather is hot, its like im already 1 step closer.. and i have often tricked myself into having one. blah!

so im leaving the mall and i run into this guy Kent that i went to high school with. he sort of recognized me but said that my face looked different. (im like- i had more chins) and he told me that i looked good. i gave him the info for next week, and maybe he will come. it just goes to show that no one is going to think i look the same as i did back then.!!

on another note.. i am still very lightheaded every day and i cant figure it out...ive also had to take my time going up or down stairs because i feel like im going to fall. weird.

oh another good thing that happened is that i got paid 600 $ extra this payday and i get to keep it. it was back sea pay from December that i didnt even know i deserved. and now ill be getting an extra 100 $ a month!!

current weight-134

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