another boring weekend.

i went to the movies with sola last night...the movie was a little let down..for all you matrix fans...it suxs. anyway hunter and i come home and he's up at 4 am puking up buttered popcorn..it was bad..i felt horrible...if youve never yaked up popcorn ever -i dont recomend it...it ranks up there with puking spaghetti..or dry bread...or salsa.

Well i looked for a dress for my sister's wedding and i dont know what direction im supposed to be going in...all the dresses look too nice for someone who's not actually "in the wedding"..and i dont want to dress to casual.. everything is "too prom" and then my sister is like wear whatever..wear a skirt and shirt...but at the same time im supposed to be in some kind of family photo..and look like the hillbilly cousin that showed up to have cake and booze?!? trust me i dont think ill be staying long.its like she doesnt want us to upstage her or something.

im felling very ugly and dumb this weekend..i almost had a full blown panic attack thinking about living with Chad... i dont know why i thought it was a good idea to want to live with someone i am not even currently dating and then just jump right in to it?! Im like a glutton for punishment. i feel as though i am giving up so much and i have the prospect of gaining only one thing...love and thats not even garanteed. i must be out of my mind..

I guess the saying is right..be careful what you wish for.. you just might get it.

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